But I am at peace with the statement that I’m not wrong in this case — and I’m either explaining what I’m saying poorly, or perhaps you’re not willing to hear what I’m trying to say. We all are. Though…not without some truly painful tribulations. "I'll call a nurse, okay? My eyes felt so heavy when I tried to open it. Both, in an “OMG you’re sexy as fuck love at first sight” way. Sometime’s I just want to scream at my friends who never call or write. ‘Cause when you fall, you gotta get up Stupidly, arrogantly content. I don’t know who I used protection with or not. I call BULLSHIT: you’re RACIST The sister I’ve mourned — is the outcast. I attack my body to protect me — us This is coming from a place of COVID-19 preparations, of course. TMI Alert: I have been tested several times post that era of “me,” and I’m 100% STI free by whatever fucking miracle. Bed space holders changing by flow I Been Sober, ‘Cause There Ain’t No Hangover Like You. "Hey..." Mac called and immediately held my hand. Mabilis na nagsibagsakan ang luha sa mga mata ko. When I mourn one person who was in my life and then I lost because they have died, I tend to mourn all of those people at once. — all up in my healing process, not to mention part of my program. And now the love of my life is disappeared. The man I worked for who sexually assaulted me didn’t make me a survivor. We danced the night away, we drank too much #peaceandloveforlivesandlovesomemore, #pride (because I love months dedicated to celebrating civil liberties (or lack thereof), but I also think such division hurts INCLUSIVITY as well — like saying — you’re not one of everyone else so here’s your one month to shine). #garnet I know my Mom still deals with my sister’s EZ-Pass despite my sister being incredibly irresponsible with remembering to keep her EZ-Pass with her. But I also feel like there are people all along the spectrum, so in that sense, I feel like I e would be more bisexual or just, you know, open-ended.”. And now I'm in the hospital because of it. In many ways — she’s never been available emotionally for me. Wattpad: justcallmecai FB Group: Team Justcallmecai Twitter: cailameneses Instagram: cailameneses Tiktok: justcallmecai Because apparently that’s what she needs and believes is what is best for her. But I have a crush! heir, justcallmecai, gbs. I’m especially sad that I won’t get to give this meant to be personalized gift to her because we used to share a deep bond over music. I wear my “Black Lives Matter” shirt and even with a mask on I merely replied with “OK. It’s cute and I want to fuel you, I know that’s a bit creepy so before you call the police (My Mom says my now “I’m dead to her” sister doesn’t want me alive because she “doesn’t want to be around someone who hates her so much”.) Who Want To See My Greatness? It happens to people committed to each other for fewer years than we were together all the time. "Maka-assumera naman." I thought, “maybe I am just over exhausted.” Then it happened again. What will she do now knowing that she's bad for him? I like to be prepared. (<— JK about the sistergift friendship BFF rings. It’s like air to me, or music. I REALLY, SUPER want this space to be a positive experience for my readers. I see mine too And as I’ve gotten sicker and started losing so many people, I kind of (?????) In What You Believe. But I’m also not accepting resumes while I’m working my program right now. To have and to hold and to lock away for as long as we both might live, And then the smile And they’re both beautiful. #ChasingAfterYouWP Chapter 13 No. But I also got thrown down the stairs by a guy. Before you start worrying that you may have celiac disease, only 0.5%-1.1% of the worlds population suffer from it . She doesn’t live here anymore but still has annoying places calling the house phone constantly asking for her. It’s not like I have to go to my sister’s wedding because I’m not invited. Mac said and held me tighter. It could be the last thing my friends remember about/hear from me. It cannot be “cured.”. So watch out bitches, because those who have been telling me I can’t withstand the storm do not yet know that I AM THAT MOTHERFUCKING STORM. Walang may kasalanan dito kung hindi ang Daddy. I’m Over “EatPlayLove”. You gotta get up and move on, Tell me, how the Hell could you talk? It NEVER will He will scoop you up right before you drop the final inch so that you cannot blame him for sending you there. I’ll miss watching you play, but you’ve more than earned this, baby. Then. Is porn bad for you? This feat is going to be one of the hardest I’ve faced. I discovered this past summer that I’m Demisexual. I said, I already told ya I crave interaction. I am back to the Pedialyte diet. Annnnnnnnnnnnnddddddddddddd some of us make sure we always own a pair of yellow chucks whether we’re in college dating “Old Tim” — or 34 years old. I’ll bring you coffee with a kiss on your head SO IF you ARE lucky enough to be a “friend” of hers — and you tell her about this post, let me tell you something very important: you’re a garbage person. And she lost everything because of it... Yaman, mga kaibigan, at ang pinakamamahal niyang si Mac De Guzman. No one knows that I haven’t typed on a computer in over a year and a half except to copy and paste work from my phone into publication submissions and contest submissions. We’ve come so far my dear Now we’re a disgrace to immigrants pathetically instead #gbs I can never give up on someone I love. My Dad wouldn’t be going to her wedding next summer if I was told I was unwelcome, (and of course I’m not involved let alone invited because I’m DEAD). I know my Mom mails my sister her mail because my sister is incapable of collecting it for her[adult]self, although she IS capable of having it sent here. Buying a property can be very emotional, only topped by the emotions you feel when you sell the home that you have lived in for a while and brought up a family. And I’ll thank my lucky stars for that night, When you looked over your shoulder For making you cry Why is the world so base? The thought that we’d break up for real was not in my vocabulary of thoughts. I-I'm really sorry.". I called her two Sundays ago and opened the door. I just don’t believe I deserve to be loved anymore. All this is to say, mourning death is natural on every level I addressed above. Bad For You 650K Reads 32.8K Votes 44 Part Story. Thank you to everyone who has supported me this year. KILLED ME. New Vibe featuring Gusto Kalel Follow me on Instagram for updates and selfies. So many have spoken Me forever gagging — me My sister gave it to him. "It's okay... Everything will be okay." Wanting to step outside of my body galore. Then I guess I’ll never get better if I’m an alcoholic, because I can’t admit I’m powerless while also saying I can control and get over my addiction. On someone who might be available! Yet. And I’m accepting and owning that shit twenty-four seven. He’s the one missing. I can sleep a little better because it makes a difference #academy His words are still in my head. Garnett Elementary School. Even when we’re ghosts THIS…is a REALLY painful week for me. Me Because as I’ve mentioned in prior posts, music is one of very few things that keeps me breathing. But a Storm’s coming bitches About a month or two ago. And I’ll take the kids to school You ever seen a cop in uniform pull out his gun? By way of background…”Old Tim” was my college boyfriend who I was very in love with and who I was silly enough and young enough and not yet nearly ME enough when we were together to understand we wouldn’t be together forever or get married. LoL !!!!! But never quite letting me drown. In everything I read, or everything I watch, when I insert myself into the place of the narrator/protagonist/etc. But I keep telling myself, “hey, it’s NOT YOUR choice.”. I told him while tears are flowing down my face. My now “I’m dead to her” sister being gone after making unacceptable and incredible decisions that my Dad would have definitely stood by me during. I’m tired of not watching “Shark Tank” with him and having him research what was going on with every single business that appeared on the show to see where they are now. Sometimes I Think She Must Get Off On Turning Me ON. garnet, heir, academy. 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